Staff just here to cover their hours and dispense night medication
Not very sympathetic normally
111 time I think
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My heart aches for you. I think of you every day.
I am sorry that things have become this terrible. I know you are desperate and want to give it all up.
Maybe things will get a little better at some point. Don’t think the sun will never shine again for you — it can!
Sometimes our families are not supportive in the least.
How is your toothache?
By the way, why do you think you cannot improve?
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@Matthew1798
I wish and hope things will change. My familt are gone for me. I think I will never see them again. I know I have 2 grand daughters, whom I wish I could cuddle just once, but it will never happen.
I can only pray and wish and hope.
I buy a lottery ticket weekly in the hope of a trip round the globe, one day.
Please do not worry about me. I am sure you have your own concerns and wishes.
Regards
Azhar
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I can worry about you if I want to. 
I think about you daily when doing my prayers and meditations.
I unite my suffering with yours, and all the sufferings of others on here.
May you heal, dear friend. Take good care of yourself. The sun will come out again.
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@Matthew1798
Your words and sentiments make me feel good daily. Its nice to know, someone thinks of me and rfemembers me at his private moments
I thank you and wish you well. When I do bow my head before the Almighty, I thank him the good folks he has put on this earth. Its been a long weekend, even though City lost to United, and the Cricket is not happening.
The World Cup is round the corner. Another Pak v Ind face off to look forward to (Sun 9th June) (We get to play and beat the Yanks team few days before that. Why they can be included in this tournament, I cannot work out.)
Regards
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Still thinking of you daily.
Take good care of yourself.
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Woke up few minutes ago, and logged in and there you are, being kind and thoughtful with your words.
Its going to be a nice day, I will try and get some fresh air today.
Regards
A A
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I hope you got your fresh air and a brighter day. Many more better days will follow.
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I live in a gated estate which has 6 acres of groungdd and one end runs along the north side of the Thames.
The air is fresh early daytime. I likie to go look at all the new green growth.
I cannot live here forever. It is a Care Home. I belong where I was brn. A view of Everest on a sunny day from my grandfathers inherited haveli, Chilly winters and a river full of fish, ripe for fishing in the Summer months. I may take my pension and go rent a home there and live out the rest of my years there.
Reminded of Marigolds that grow wild all over my ancestral heritage. The buffalows for the creamy milk they provide, and the food that is prevalent there. Street food and the home cooked dishes of my childhood.
I will die while I imagine and long to write about a life wasted in wishes and regrets
AA
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Is it possible for you to go back home? It sounds delightful, despite the realities of a big move.
If that is what you want, may you have it.
Take good care, Azhar.
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To this day I remain a dual citizen and am free to come and go between both countries as I wish
A priviledged position I take advantage of as I wish
I know folks who have returned and lived out their lives in the way I want to,
The NHS and its benefits keep me here. I would find life harder if I had to import medication and travel abrad for treatment while living there
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Yes, its a complex called Fitzroy Gate, been here since Victorian Era, google it and you will see what it consists of. worth ££££££0000000000 plenty
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Historically very relevant part of London. Lot of blood was spilt round here in the past.
You know where I am. It is a Care Home which is costing the tax payer a lot to house 30 ish residents. Lucky to be able to live here. Would rather be somewhere on the coast and not rivers edge.
Wish I win the lottery and go somewhere closer to the sea and or mountains
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High A A I roughly know where you are, in my youth gravitated from Hammersmith , Chiswick, and then Kew . Those were the days when Concorde flew overhead. Even a holiday back home would lift your spirit if it’s a possibility. Start saving those pennies. There must be organisations out there to help. Enjoy the cricket. Paul
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@Pds
I worked in Harrow for many years and Chiswick is a personal favourite for its historical significance in my personal past. Dukes Avenue, and the walk down to Chiswick House and the A4 and Burlingon Lane, many a romantic tryst in the grounds there
Memories
of when I quit Manchester and moved to west London thanks to Maggies Britain of the 1980s.
Manchester is where my heart longs to be, for as long as I remain in the UK.
I long for the land of my childhood, and would happily move there to live out whatever I have left. I am qualified to teach and would love to do that as a conclusin to a lifetime spent in the UK. Where I came as a child, and would leave as a pensioner. My family (parents and siblings) are all buried in Manchester. I will end up there alongside them all one of these days
I dream on of old age away from this Care Home existence which is demanding and unsatisfactory.
I am a farmer by heritage, and would love to go and grow food on my family’s historical heritage, on the banks of the Chenab.
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Languages maybe your escape route to a better life. Aged 15 at secondary French or gardening ? French was not compulsory , just had to be outside, not academic so settled for the good life, at times income was not good but now a reasonable lifestyle. Stroke took some vision but more than enough to get by, no physical , just the annoying head .
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@Pds
Seems yu made your choices and lived by them, and now you have no regrets.
As for languages. I am fluent in 4, and they mean I communicate well with people from certain backgrounds. I could have gone to the UN as an interpreter at one time, but did not fancy living in New York, as its not my cup of tea. I am too British in my ways and wants, and will die that way inclined.
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Still thinking of you, friend! I hope you are feeling better.
What four languages do you speak? Let me guess: English, Urdu, Hindi, and ?
(Urdu and Hindi are very similar, if not mutually intelligible with each other, no?)
Please take care. Bye for now.
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I am Punjabi by birth. Hope that gives you the idea. I understand Sairiki, Sindhi
and Farsi also.
Regards
AA
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How do you know Farsi, out of curiosity? Are there are a lot of Farsi speakers in Pakistan? I didn’t know that. Thank you!
I hope you’re doing just fine.
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