Keep Yourself Alive

After hearing the recent news from Brian May that he had what they called a minor stroke, I got thinking about a few things stroke survivors have to engage with as they move along in life after the fact. Firstly, the term minor stroke is a phrase fraught with possible misconceptions. Did Brian have a stroke with a small radius of damage? Or a stroke with a large radius of damage but around a location of the brain that possibly produces minor symptoms? Or did Brian have a TIA? Brian told his public that he can still play guitar and has use of the affected arm. This is all good news, but the problem lies in how stroke is perceived by the greater public who have not experienced this wretched event in its most debilitating form. Brian was a wee bit dismissive of the whole event, as if he had merely sprained an ankle or was stung by a wasp. The video he put out, felt like that to me.

I started thinking of stroke success stories, and even disability as a whole. I think everything from the Paralympic Games and see the ability and not the disability is all good, positive fodder for societies that can sometimes be cruel and prejudiced. However, there is a repercussion of this one way street that gridlocks the minds of the general public, governments, and social services.

There exists a mindset that potentially punishes the millions of brain injury casualties for not fitting into this model of brain injury survival. The millions of people who have crippling and obstructive physical and psychological repercussions, causing pain and functional stress throughout their lives as a result of brain injury. A case in point, recently, I spoke to someone from PIP, during a mandatory reconsideration phone conversation, she said about herself, ā€œI had a stroke, but that was many years ago, so Iā€™m fine nowā€. Well, my interpretation of the remark worked on three levels, the first was a positive response to her rehabilitation, the second was reassurance that I was speaking to someone who might provide empathy, but the third was that if she could recover so well, perhaps she expected the same of all stroke survivors.

Politicians, seeking to reduce social service expenditure, are turning to the disabled and trying to figure out how to make a workforce out of them. In my personal view, this is a fundamental shift in the custodial responsibility of communities, seen in examples of child labour or extended legislative retirement sanctions on the elderly. For a start, most workplace infrastructure and ethos isnā€™t adapted for disability, especially when considering the range of workplace options accessible to someone with brain injury or another disability. Anyhow, all that is another topic, but what I am highlighting is this misunderstanding that a person with a brain injury should be able to just pull themselves together and make good.

Social welfare is vitality important, it proves we care for one another, whether children, elders, or those who find themselves mentally or physically disrupted or incapacitated. The perception that stroke is a temporary illness or injury is both naive and insensitive. There are some great stories out there of people with brain injury and disabilities overcoming the odds but there are also many stories of those who havenā€™t, just like in war, those who come home and those who donā€™t.

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@Rups brilliantly put. I find workmates, friends and even family do not get strokes at all. They think I am back to ā€œnormalā€ just because they canā€™t see anything physically wrong.

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Completely agree @Rups. Feels like a no mans land. Society makes assumptions based on appearance and then extrapolates it to fit what works for them, with little understanding.
Good luck with the MR for PIP. I appealed after being turned down, and was given it at tribunal. I had my PIP taken off me about a year later, as a result of a review which consisted of a 10 minute phone call with a ā€œhealth care professionalā€ who put her ticks in her boxes. I am past wanting to appeal.
The only up side to this is I no longer have any dealings with the DWP and sadly on balance Iā€™ll take that.
Julia

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@Rups Very thoughtful post. There really is so much more to stroke than meets the eye and so many misconceptions about it. Itā€™s an ongoing ā€˜conditionā€™ that has different outcomes for each survivor. And not one of us knows whether our journey will be lifelong or whether enough healing will establish itself in our bodies to allow us to live a life free from disability. We can reach a point where it feels like weā€™re nearing the finishing post but then, something new and sometimes scary rears its head and has to be dealt with or accepted. So life after stroke becomes unpredictable for many of us despite working hard to minimise both potential problems and the ones we already have.

Iā€™m slowly adjusting to this new life. Thereā€™s still plenty of time for improvement. Iā€™ve accepted there are bad days and better days and that I need to go with the flow whichever kind of day it is.
Two weeks ago, I was able to drive myself to my first group physio session. Afterwards, I went to see a friend for a cuppa. It felt normal and was the first time Iā€™ve done anything like that completely on my own post stroke. Last week, I just about managed to get myself showered and dressed, but had no energy to get to the physio session. I let them know I couldnā€™t make it, got a letter a couple of days later saying I wouldnā€™t be offered any more sessions if I missed another appointment. Yesterday, I cancelled, explaining that Iā€™m unable to be consistent and that my real need is for someone to come to my home. Really, this should have been noted when I had an online physio assessment back in February and I should have spoken up but I didnā€™t. And because the assessment was online, the assessor was unable to make a realistic evaluation of my needs.

The truth is, we are on our own. There is no longer a social welfare system; itā€™s been eroded along with the NHS. Our true friends stick around and are faithful. They are learning about stroke through us and hopefully, that will equip them with enough knowledge to share with anyone who might be interested. Sadly though, many of us arenā€™t that interested in illnesses and diseases until they strike us personally or affect someone close to us. And it can feel hopeless and painful to witness suffering in someone you care about, knowing you can do little to alleviate it. I think thatā€™s why friends sometimes run. The burden is too much for them. They count the cost and decide itā€™s too high to stick around.

Just my thoughts. Iā€™ve rambled a bit againšŸ™ˆ

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@Rups very well put. Society does have a perception that if one person can do it then we all should be able to. There are many reasons why that isnā€™t the case though. Some of it is inbuilt within us and will depend on our ability, motivation etc. Some of it is down to what happened & where. In the case of people like Brian May money will help them get the support they need. Iā€™ve not explained that all very wellā€¦my brain is too tired today but you have put it very eloquently.
Good luck with the PIP too.

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Well put @Rups

I think there are those in the stroke association who have failed to grasp the implications of itā€™s role has published therefore includes being our advocates and voice. Some do get it of course

That is why this forum should provide a community voice in its configuration, regulation and moderation AND a two-way conduit to influence all of the functions and departments within the stroke association that need to be informed by the voice of lived experience expertise.

Realisation may not historically have been an identified consequences of forming a forum but it is a real consequence of the evolution of the community, the forum, and the stroke association as a fundraising organisation which claims values and goals of the nature that are published via its outward communications (eg website)

3Ā¢

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Yes we are ; the journey is too painful for others to share (too much). But we have supporters, and each other

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To whom do you refer to by 'supportersā€™Āæ?

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My ā€œteamā€, my 600 Facebook friends, anyone who wishes well
They may support with material means, or just send good vibes, with an encouraging comment

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Iā€™m truly glad that you have a constant, loyal supportive team around you :slight_smile:

A very great asset (that most donā€™t have)

Extending the range of outreach that all of us have, instilling consistency and quality is surely a component of the binding forces that form a peer support community.

One of the Raison dā€™ĆŖtre for our being together.
The forum owners do not have to embrace all the community embraces but nor should they be a barrier :construction:, being neutral is however a minimum and happiest when they are a facilitator, supporter and advocate

3Ā¢

(Post shared with Donna Tipping Communications Director Stroke Association)

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Too true :mending_heart:. Itā€™s an uphill struggle for many.

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Hi all i agree with nearly every comment on this site i fought with MPs was in constant contact via email and phone with NHS to escalate my wifes much needed open heart surgery we waited 2 years ! It took my wife to flatline in hospital to eventually have the surgery which went ahead in December of last year. She was recovering very well until April when unfortunately i suffered a stroke the treatment we both received i have to say was second to none however the aftercare is very very poor apart from a couple of visits from physio i now attend a class weekly paid for by myself. My wife and i feel on our own and abandoned. Our local GP practice have been fantastic but without family around it would be a different ball game for us there is hardly any follow up you have to push and ask always. We both try and keep positive but it is so so hard as was said earlier we both receive comments from friends and family like oh you are both looking so well when its only half the picture! In my own way i try to educate people i come in contact with because unless it happens to you they have no conception of what its like. Keep strong all theres a song i sing constantly Thats life the words always give me inspiration!

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Sadly your experience is all too common & you have to push to get anything these days. The system seems to be broken & not sure how theyā€™ll fix it.

If people say I look well I usually say thank you & move on. Sometimes i will explain how it is but as you say unless youā€™ve been there they canā€™t truly understand- the same with any illness.

Hope you & your wife are progressing ok now.

Best wishes Ann

Thanks Anne itā€™s good to be in contact with people in a similar situation I also go to a couple of groups coffee mornings etc they are a big help you take care regards Abby .

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This post is very pertinent, I have been off work for 8 weeks now,I am due another OH appointment tomorrow, Iā€™m feeling a bit of pressure to return, but as a postman this physically demanding and I just donā€™t feel up to (fatigue maybe) but I feel that my managers and colleagues question why Iā€™m off because I ā€œonlyā€ had a TIA but coupled with the news I MAY have a minor heart issue, I find myself getting quite anxious about my impending return

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Try not to let your employer hurry you back to work. It will be worse in the long run if you go back too early. Use the OH assessment to explain how you are impacted & the effect it has on you.

It doesnā€™t matter what your colleagues think & they probably donā€™t think as much as we imagine they do. They are not medical experts & they are not you so have no idea how you are impacted.

I had a TIA at end of last year (i had previously had a stroke) and the fatigue was / is awful. I was already back at work when I had my TIA & i continued to work but it got me in the end and I had to take sick leave.

Take your time & go back when you are ready.

Best wishes

Ann

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Kieran rang and spoke to the person at the BBC who wrote a very trivialising piece- Ian Youngs and told him that his article created the wrong impression as written so the guy changed it!!

Itā€™s more balanced now with some quotes from the stroke association

Not perfect but certainly not the misleading article that it was originally

Well-done to @kgb too :slight_smile:

Caio
Simon

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Thank you for that, I spoke to OH yesterday and they were brilliant, essentially Iā€™m to stay off until I feel ready, then we will work with my manager on a plan to get back into work, this has taken a huge weight off
Regards
John

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That sounds positive & pleased that has relieved the pressure on you.

Best wishes

Ann

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Hi @Rups,
Nice article :slight_smile:
Excuse my ignorance but what is PIP?
Thank you.

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