Are you giving up already, but it’s barely been 6 months 
I know you don’t want sympathy and you’ve just said you don’t want encouragement, oh and you don’t want to be disabled…who does 
Now can you tell us what you do want and how you are going to get it. Because there’s is no way out of this, you are in it for the long haul. And the only way out of it is to work damn hard at doing just that like the rest of us. You have to take yourself in your own hands and give yourself a good shake…every morning. You have to plough on through regardless of how you feel. Distract your mind from the negative thoughts every time they rear their ugly heads.
Concentrate on improving the positives such as walking with a stick. And work hard on improving them, like walking without the stick.
Keep on trying to do things with your left arm. I know it can’t actually do anything but in order to get your brain to find and establish new pathways around the damaged area. And in order to do that it has to constantly be reminded that there is a left arm on your body to be put to good use. The only way for your brain to learn and memorise new routes. But it can’t do that if you don’t keep on trying.
I know I’m being a bit tough here, I’m trying to stick a virtual rocket up your beam end to shake you out of this. What you do need to establish is whether your emotions are affected by the stroke. But you are going to need to see your doctor about that.
A stroke in the left hemisphere of the brain can affect emotions, particularly in the context of depression, anxiety, and emotional lability. While both hemispheres contribute to emotional processing, the left hemisphere plays a significant role in regulating emotions, particularly in the area of verbal expression of emotions.
Why don’t you spend more time interacting on here; take part in some of the social aspects such as the forum games and brain teasers and riddles. See if you can make yourself laugh more in Our New Funnies Thread.
Just keep posting and allow us to help you over these hurdles 
Lorraine