Hi all, my name is Rachel, and my husband had a stroke last year in October on my daughter’s 2nd birthday. He is 45 years old, and I am 40. We live in London now; we don’t have family here. He had a significant stroke due to high blood pressure, resulting in left basal ganglia hemorrhage of over 100ml. He stayed in ICU for around 1 month, then moved to rehab for about 4 months, followed by community rehab for 1 month. Last month he was discharged from rehab and came back home. Now we have carers come to our home four times a day, and we are still waiting for physiotherapy and speech therapy, which is quite stressful and frustrating because I need to look after both of them, and therapy is very important. My husband has aphasia and can’t move his right side. He also can’t use a computer or write or type. I feel very lost and don’t know what I should do; sorry, I feel very confused, and there are a lot of things I don’t know what to write about. We have been together for 17 years, and now I have to accept this and try to sort out life. Putting him in a care home is really not a good option, but staying at home is also not easy… I don’t know anything about the future.”
Hi Rachel and welcome. You and your husband have been through and
are dealing with a huge change in your lives. Plus you have a toddler to raise. All big things. I hope you get physio sorted as this will help hubby. I was lucky i had a stroke in jan 23. It affected my right side and the occupational health team came to my home twice a week for 6 months. I hated and could not do the exercises at first but i was determined not to be beaten! I wish you all the luck in the world, together you will get through this and speak to your dr - x
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“Hi all, my name is Rachel, and my husband had a stroke last year in October on my daughter’s 2nd birthday. He is 45 years old, and I am 40. We live in London now; we don’t have family here. He had a significant stroke due to high blood pressure, resulting in left basal ganglia hemorrhage of over 100ml. He stayed in ICU for around 1 month, then moved to rehab for about 4 months, followed by community rehab for 1 month. Last month he was discharged from rehab and came back home. Now we have carers come to our home four times a day, and we are still waiting for physiotherapy and speech therapy, which is quite stressful and frustrating because I need to look after both of them, and therapy is very important. My husband has aphasia and can’t move his right side. He also can’t use a computer or write or type. I feel very lost and don’t know what I should do; sorry, I feel very confused, and there are a lot of things I don’t know what to write about. We have been together for 17 years, and now I have to accept this and try to sort out life. Putting him in a care home is really not a good option, but staying at home is also not easy… I don’t know anything about the future.”
Hi Rachel @Dago & welcome to the community. Sorry to hear of your husbands stroke. It sounds like it has been a very tough road for you all so far and there is no doubt a tough road to travel yet. Things can improve though but nobody is saying itvwill be easy. It has changed your lives completely and finding a new way through can be difficult and it’s about finding a new routine, a new normal if you like. At a time when life probabbly feels anything but normal.
I can only imagine how difficult it is having a toddler too…i found it hard enough ans I was no where near as badly affected.
Ask as many questions as you need / want to here. There is usually someone who can offer their experience.
Sending my very best wishes to you all.
Ann
Getting it all out and telling your story is a good place to start. You will begin to fit the pieces together in some sort of way so it works.
As the others here have said, we do care about you and what you are going through. There are a lot of us and although it might not seem like much of an answer, you will begin to find a way and no doubt see improvements that will encourage you.
It is a horrible shock and can be tough to face but it does get better. That goes for everyone affected by stroke.
keep on keepin’ on
Hi Rachel @Dago welcome to the forum. As everyone has already said, it will get better and you’re not alone here 
Your husband is young and has a lot to fight for, he doesn’t want to be a helpless invalid any more than you do. Considering his age, I suspect he wants his life back and will do everything he can to fight for it. Yes you may care for him while he can’t do for himself, but don’t baby him. He needs time and room to relearn, to rebuild or to adapt for his loses. Don’t give up on him and don’t despair, it’s really just about adapting to a new set of rules.
And you already know how to do that because you have a 2 year old! You’ve both already had to frequently adapt to each stage of your daughters development. As she’s gone from being carried everywhere, fed, bathed and changed, to being mobile and into everything and learning independence to feed/care for herself. So give it another year or two and you won’t be doing the half of what you are doing now for husband. You will all adapt and find your new normal and your daughter will want to be your little helper too. So let her wherever/whenever she can 
Thank you very much and I will try my best 
Hi Simon. I am getting a bit confused. hmm still try use this one . 
Thank you for the information and I will try to do it . At the moment still a bit frustrated and try to settle down . Are there any zoom meeting we could talk and share ? Also do you know any speech online classes. Feel free if you have any advise for us. 
Hi Ann, Thank you for the message, yes it is very tough and hard to be honst I am not sure how should handle and sometimes still feel like a dream. Hope he will getting better 
Hi Bobbi, Thank you very much. I hope he could start to use computer and can type but he got very significate aphasia and I don’t know when he can come online .
Thank you for the encourage. I will keep the hope 
sometimes still feel very sad and hard to accept what happened . He is there but it is different. Even I would like together with him to supermarket is become luxury 
Hi Rachel
As others have said, welcome to the forum.
I run an online carers’ cafe on a Friday afternoon. The next one is this Friday at 3pm.
Heres the link if you want to join
Carers’ Cafe
Hope to see you
Lea