Rock On indeed, it’s the same for me now everybody and I do mean everyone are a part of me now. Can’t explain but once Id settled down to rebuilding the new me after Stoke my outlook on life changed for the better. No negative vibes about anyone. Don’t get me wrong I have down days when I need to rant/rave and kick myself in gear and be kind to myself
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Couldn’t agree more @Mahoney
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I have come to realise you really have to try and get the best from the time you are given. There are many things to worry about but mostly we cant solve them, only do our best to improve things.
In 2013 my son was diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma, he was 25, after a year of gruelling treatment things were looking good. In 2014 I was diagnosed with breast cancer and shortly after we found my sons cancer had returned, we went through treatment at the same time. We lost our boy on 12 December 2015. Life has never been the same. Troubled years followed, unable to cope with losing my son and trying to support his brother and sister. through their grief. His father (my ex husband) moved away with a new partner. Covid followed with the uncertainty of lockdown. Just as I thought I was coping with life again I suffered a stroke out of the blue. I have been lucky not to suffer too badly but it has left me tired and depressed. I guess what Im trying to say is seize any joy you can, enjoy the little things with the people you love. Being ill makes you realise we are all vulnerable and some things really dont matter.
I hear you @Rups when you say you feel like yoda, me too!!
Sorry to ramble, I guess you all have stories to tell.
Sending best wishes to everyone… look for the joy in the everyday.
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I am so sorry. I cannot imagine the loss of a child at any age. I don’t know why you are still here, I am still here, but we have lost so many others we love and seemingly should have been healthier or expecting much more life time. But I do suspect there is a reason we are still here, and you advice to look for the joy is the best advice there could be. Some days that is harder than others, but it is all that truly matters…at least for me, as I see joy as love. If I have a bout of depression I try for 5 minutes of joy today, maybe 10 tomorrow, adding a little until I start noticing hope again. Even if that little joy is only in finishing a task, or watching the stars, or any simple thing. That where my joy comes from…the small, generally overlooked things. Very nice to meet you. I hope you are feeling better each day.
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