Hi pal apologies I haven’t been on here a lot and so many sad stories and thanks for the reply !!! Sorry to hear this and so many sad stories of others too but!
I was in a dark place with anger & frustration because of the stroke I really thought my life is over !!! I don’t know if I mentioned I was taking a Masters in song writing I started it in 2019/20 then the lock downs and then I ended up in hospital I thought I had Covid but they found my kidneys not working properly so I started dialysis in June that year in April I had a dialysis induced seizure and 6 months later a stroke !!! nightmare !!! I was in the middle of furnishing my bathroom new shower/bath/sink/toilet, floor tiles I had four tiles to finish off bathroom stroke that night 
so from doing everything myself to getting a hoist from bed to toilet soul destroying!!!
Anyway I’ve done some rehab work and I’m back driving classed as disabled now and walking with a stick or should I say hobbling with a stick 
it’s been so frustrating soul destroying a horrible journey to be honest and also tried playing guitar and done a little bit of work an assignment and got to finish off my first year (way hay) but been trying the guitar I’m like a beginner couldn’t even play an Eminor so I had a meeting with university last week and said I can’t play guitar anymore I’m just going to stop and I felt crap all day:pensive:
Went to bed I was watching sting and his guitarist and they inspired me the next thing I’m writing an idea down at 2am
And I thought this isn’t about guitar it’s about song craft which I loved and the next day I emailed university back to have another meeting so we’re having one this week 
so I’ve been writing over the last week and I’m feeling like I use too I can’t wait to start back!!! Ok I need some help the guys I had a meeting with one plays guitar and the other keyboard so I’ve wrote down at least 25 ideas I’m back on the production so that little spark I felt I’ve grabbed it with every ounce of my being and I’m just thinking about a little moment feeding my fish in the pound and bing a light came on and thought my guitar playing is holding me back there is other ways to write so the stroke kinda made sense 
I know it sounds weird but nature can bring us around sometimes things are going to be ok no matter what happens I felt so alive obviously I’ve been a little up and down but generally I’m not afraid anymore I’m looking forward so I hope this helps someone! Take care all 
@Thewhiteark Wow what a story, and you’ve found a silver lining. Played my piano today and at the start I was doing quite well in spite of my hand feeling like cement. Only for a short time though. I’ve written and recorded quite a few songs and I’m still in a band. My voice is still good as the lead singer but my keyboard playing is a bit klunky. I’m so glad you are finding a new direction? Exciting endeavors?
Wonderful. I’m still looking for a reason this happened to me besides the cold and clinical “scientific” facts, but I am using “science” and meds to keep another stroke at bay.
There may be a reason though. If I hadn’t had the stroke they would not have found that I had a blood cancer disorder and I could have died from it. So…I’m on a chemo pill that works well with no side effects.
Good wishes and best of luck,
Derek
Ha ha yeah mate AM for sure 
This truly touched me. Something similar has happened for me many times. I can’t say it has since strokes, but I suspect it will. There are a few good things I can name that have come from this. I am glad you have seen another way…finding another way to enter!