Definitely not a pity party. We’re all here to listen & support where we can.
Just before my 1 year “anniversary” i ended up back in A&E as I felt just like I did when I had my stroke. There is a thing called decompensation that can occur. I’ve copied in a para that I saw elsewhere in case it helps. It may not be this you’re suffering but it might help a bit.
“Sometimes, if you are tired, unwell or under stress, the new connections in the healing brain can struggle to keep up. This can lead to problems reappearing or getting a bit worse. For example, at the end of a long day, someone might drag their leg more than usual, or slur their speech. This is known as decompensation.”