Something interesting is playing out right now. Its a feeling ive not had in some time. Actually, it’s not a feeling at all, its definitely a vision. I can picture myself pulling this whole stroke life off. There’s been some real concern that I could do it. Oh, ive had hope, the idea that somehow I’ll make sense of it one day, but never could picture myself as a disabled person doing very little for the rest of my life. Something is happening to me that feels different. Its not the typical Rollercoaster high that I often get ( and can easily identify). This feels like a move to a new plane of post stroke life. Could it be the result of 4 1/2 years of taxing the daylights out of my brain? A new pathway created? My god, I hope so. I need a win. I wrote this post purposely so I can revisit this in the future. Sort of a new baseline. There’s a picture in my head, of me, in the future, and it’s not my worst photo ever. This vision also includes Much less “psychobabble” and much less thinking, more living. 
@Chlodog There comes a point where your post-stroke “scaffolding” needs to start coming down so the building can just be lived in . What you’re describing sounds like the beginning of that—a transition from managing recovery to inhabiting a life. Bravo, Sir. You’re definitely pulling this off.
Jonathan - it feels like it, because it is. I truly believe you are moving to a new plane and I truly believe you have created a new pathway and yes, the picture in your head of you in the future is what you are now moving to.
I wish you every success and I feel you will one day come back to read this post and see your vision has indeed come true.
If you have a timeline, bookmark this post with the timeline 
Just to be clear, I am talking about a new plain not plane. You won’t catch me near an airport.
@pando it’s very much like moving into a new house. Ive been “under construction “ forever.
@Chlodog Good luck, i believe in visions and I also believe if you want something you can have it. Some goals are harder to achieve than others. Even if you have to crawl to get there. Keep us updated. 
Irene
sometimes, it’s a rocky road,
other times, a gentle drift downstream,
it can be so boring and bland,
suddenly becoming stimulating, exciting,
turning into hard work,
hanging on for tomorrow,
wondering where yesterday went.
It’s life and this is our chance to live it,
or hibernate a little longer,
until the damp and the frosts have gone.
Whatever,
you got it,
keep on keepin on
@Chlodog , keep at it. Nice to have a goal to reach for. Take your time, it’s a marathon not a sprint. (A bit of a cliche, I know)
It sounds like you have reached a good place from which to start living your life again. At some point we do have to move to that stage & it might be different to what we thought it would be but it can be good still.
Go for it. We look forward to hearing how you’re gettjng on.